Happy Mother’s Day

Hi Mamma,
You will be surprised to see this letter. I used to give you notes, handmade greeting cards, and poetries (as a writer it is a boon) every year on Mother’s Day since I understood it, maybe from class 3/4. Although every day is Mother’s Day, today you are far away, and I am missing you too much. I can’t express my fear in words while you went for surgery. A sense of loss shook me, I realized how we easily overlook the existence of the most valuable person in life and this is the reason behind this letter.

A mother’s love is unconditional and it is something that cannot be replaced by anything else. You have nurtured me, guided me, and emotionally supported me. No matter what, your presence in every condition gave me the strength and courage to face any situation. No amount of “thank you” can ever be enough to express the importance of your love and your existence in my life. You are not just a caregiver but also a protector, teacher, role model, confidant, friend and so much more! And Maa’s love is so special and irreplaceable, last year during covid one of my friend lost her mother, and although she has everyone, now today I realized what she had been gone through and still going through.

I admire you for so many qualities: your resilience, your selflessness, your compassion, and kindness which I also inherit from you. Your fighting spirit has taught me so much about life and shown me how to be strong in difficult times. I am thankful that you choose the best for me. You gave me the freedom to choose me wisely my own interest. Both Papa and you allowed me to peruse a career in psychology or journalism without hesitation while today people pressurize their kids to go for IIT/IIM or NEET. Rest assured, I will excel in whatever I will chose, (I know you have confidence).

As you say always I also taught you so many things (I am gifted in some way 😊). But here I want to remind you of things, which I’m not too fond of

1. Your guilt – Do you think all the mothers who are homemakers give their 100% time to their children? You should be proud of yourself that you are capable and reached such a higher position with your hard work. Ignore those who seed guilt in your conscious. I am really proud of you. I am independent because of my upbringing. Due to you, I have a sense of respect toward my all-girls classmates and my teachers, and all the working women.
2. I don’t like when you praise me in front of others. You know it is very difficult for a child, we seek only appreciation of others and depends on people’s reaction. When a child faces any failure, it is difficult for him to face people. Leave it to whoever is doing it. I know you will talk about someone, but I pity them. You don’t know but actually, kids lost their true self and childhood. You & Papa gave me full freedom and made me independent and responsible so believe me, this I am unable to swallow. My worth does not depend on anyone’s reaction or appreciation. There is a thin line between appreciation and boasting. I studied in Indus where the philosophy was every “child is unique” so everyone has negative and positive traits. Let me be Amogh, your Gorki. I only want your and Papa’s appreciation and true feedback because you both matter to me.

Your presence in my life is invaluable, and I cannot imagine where I would be without it. Today, on Mother’s Day, I want to thank you Mamma – not just with words but with actions. Awaiting to meet you asap.

Lots of love and hugs. Love you, Mamma!

PS: Do not cry when you find this letter